Onnagata

I think that this Union of dreams and reality is illicit because usually you can not live both in reality and dreams. A personmust usually choose just one. As an Onnagata, a person gets to live both, almost as a double life. They are living their life as a woman, but in reality are men. And a true Onnagata is someone who not onlyacts as a female on stage but someone who also practices it everyday all day. This is the illicit pairing. Even though in reality, this person is born a man and only plays a woman on stage, they still have to be a woman at all times to truly be an Onnagata. One can put on a brilliant performance, but according to the passage in Ayamegusa, you can not live as a man, because then you will try too hard and lose the charm, and become more masculine. Also, the way an Onnagata performs in real life is the most essential part of being a true Onnagata.

I also feel like the characters of masuyama and migiko, and most likely other Onnagata, struggle with liking men and that they feel they must act like women fully all the time to be Onnagata, but that this is really just a reason to make it ok for them to like men. If they dress and act like a woman, then thy are justified in liking men in their mind.

My question is:
Migiko was the only one who completely followed Kawasaki's directions, yet Kawasaki really disliked him. Why did it bother Kawasaki so much that migiko actually listened? He even criticizes his directing skills at the end, despite the good reviews for the play.